Grief and God Winks

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This topic is on the forefront of my mind today, because I attended a Celebration of Life today for my dear friends' son. The Pastor and the family did such a wonderful tribute to their beautiful husband and son. A few family members said some lovely words and shared stories. Also the Pastor gave an encouraging word to remind us of God's promise relating to losing a loved one and how there will be a reunion one day when we move to heaven. My dear friends both had wonderful stories to tell, but the one that was special to me was when his mother shared about how she had always asked her son to sing for her all his life, but he never did. It just happened that the night before her son went to be with the Lord, he and his children had spent the night at my friends' home. My dear friend was listening to her son as he got his little girl ready and tucked into bed. For the first time, she heard her beautiful son's voice singing to his little girl. This was the last memory she has of her son. It moved me to know that God provided her a memory to hold on to until she is reunited with her son again. I call things that happen like this God Winks.

I had a friend who gave me a book, actually two books by Squire Rushnell and Louise DuArt. I see that now there are a series of God Wink books. If you want to be inspired by stories of how events happen in your life where God gives you glimpses of your future without realizing a sign was given until it happens. These authors refer to them as God Winks and now that I have read the two books I had been given, I'm very alert and aware when things like this happen to me.

On the morning of August 10, 2015, my older brother was transported to heaven. I didn't find out until hours later. However, I can't remember the time he passed, but later I was informed of the time. On that particular morning, I remember this bright golden hue blaring into my window. It was a blinding light. The time it happened was about the same time that my brother took his last breath on earth and woke up to the heavenly realms. I honestly believe that God gives these winks to let us know, an event has happened with someone we love.

I've been given God Winks throughout my life before losing someone who I love tremendously. I think those God Winks are given to help us get through our grief after they are gone. I'm not talking about supernatural stuff after death. I'm talking about right before they are leaving our world for heaven.

I had posted a picture of my family on Facebook and a cousin of mine had mentioned how I had a beautiful family. I responded that he had a beautiful family as well and that I loved him very much. The next day on Christmas, my beautiful cousin (he was always very handsome) went to be with the Lord. It was very unexpected and crushed me. To know that I was able to tell my cousin I loved him before he went to the Lord meant so much to me. I was also fortunate enough to speak to him months before while at another Celebration of Life for another relative of ours about a lovely story about his Dad. His Dad had also passed away by this time. It was a story about forgiveness and how his Dad had accepted the Lord. He didn't know the forgiveness story and he hugged me and thanked me for sharing it with him. He said I gave him a lovely memory of his Dad. Again, I call that a God Wink. As I think of these two memories about him, especially when I miss him in grief, it brings a smile to my face to think of him when he was alive and we shared these special moments.

I've shared in a prior blog how I have dreams of places where I will be living in the future. I also refer to these as my God Winks. Some people call them Deja Vu -- I don't -- I think they are absolutely from God. I also shared how when I was a very little girl how I used to hear music coming from the sun. I believe that God was letting me know he existed. Before I knew he was God, I used to talk to him -- since I was four years old -- before my first childhood trauma. After the trauma I really had conversations with him and later questioned why I had been born and that's when my Mom shared with me about God and the Bible. It was hard for me to conceive what she was talking about at such a young age.

I've mentioned how I met a best friend forever (BFF) through my employment with the school district when I was 30 years old. We had already been friends for quite awhile. We were talking about going to concerts and she mentioned that when she was young, she attended an Osmond Brothers concert at Anaheim Stadium. I asked her if it was a concert on September 8, 1972. She said that was exactly the concert. To think that my BFF and I may have crossed paths and didn't know it at that concert.  I told her I think God just gave us a wink. Every year since the early 1990's, I remind my BFF on September 8 about our Osmond concert memory.

I look forward to the day that grief will be no more and the sadness associated with it will be no longer. I also look forward to the day when we can meet face to face with Jesus and we can talk to him about all the times we thought he was winking to us from heaven while we were on earth.

Revelation 21:4 -- He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more; grief, crying, and pain will be no more, because the previous things have passed away.

  • 1 Corinthians 13:12:
    • "For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known."
  • Revelation 22:4:
    • "They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads". 



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